Changes

I've changed and am changing since Faye died. And I'm a little concerned about some of that.

I'm worried that, without Faye in my life, I'm slipping back into single guy selfishness. Faye, my outspoken, outgoing wife, did not let me get away with being self absorbed. And I grew in unselfishness in our 24 years.

I was living intimately with someone else. And that someone was servant hearted. But she's gone. I really need to be careful about this.

Faye also helped ensure I maintained discipline--at least in terms of work that had to be done.

If it is to be it's now up to me.