Forgetting what lies behind

One part of this verse refers to pressing on toward the goal to win the prize.

But another part refers to forgetting what lies behind and I think that is just as important.

What lies behind? Well, for one, the life I had with Faye. Missing the woman I spent 24 years is a normal and necessary part of grieving. I still miss her.

That life, however, is gone forever. I have to live a new life. Nostalgia is part of my life. Maybe it will always be part of my life. But I cannot, dare not, let it be a trap.

I have more life ahead. I fully intend to live that life to the best of my ability. I can't try to live in what I once had, that life is gone.

But here's another thing that I need to leave behind.
The last two years have been hard, I've had my moments of brain fog, I've made mistakes and there are things I should have been doing that I forgot to do. Call it grief, or call it mild depression my life is a bit of a mess--including doing virtually nothing by way of income producing activity.

Another example is the pounds of put on. I'm unhappy about that.

But things happen. The past is the past. I need to live today, that includes developing a productive and healthy life again.

There's another thing. Sometimes, things are said that can be hurtful during the worst times in a person's life. Fortunately I can't at the moment remember any. I want to leave it that. And remember the people who blessed me.

And so I press on.

Soli Deo Gloria